Same Thing Different Year

I have been so irritable. At so many things. I am trying so hard not to be, but it doesn't seem to help! So I looked at last year this time; sure enough I talk about how irritable I am over little things.  Maybe this is just something that will happen each year. It only seems to be the week or so before. Well at least that is when it is worse! I am always irritable, but that has been lifelong. :)
I have noticed more of a speech problem the last few weeks/month. I am frequently saying the wrong word. I catch it immediately, and most of the time I can correct it. Once in a while however, I can't think of the word. Drives me nuts some times.  Again, I never know if it is Alzheimer's creeping in, grief, or just dense brain!
Not sure people really understand how much grief affects the brain.  It is not something that I think will ever go away. It is always a longing to see the other person, and knowing that you can't. It really messes with you. Hard to believe it has been almost 4 years since Korry left this earth.  Seems like just yesterday we were hanging out. I see pictures and have such sweet wonderful memories of her.