Do You Have to Wait for Angel Wings Sometimes...........
It's that time of year. It will be 4 years since God took Korry up to Heaven in a couple weeks. I am so teary over so much. My meds only work up to a point. (which I am happy about .... I don't want to be numb). Seems like every time I get alone I start to cry. Whether it is in the car or alone at night after Jazsper has gone to bed. Sometimes it is so overwhelming when I think of the loss of my wonderful Korry. But as I mentioned the other day, angels/wings have been so noticeable. Driving home I often start talking to Korry and look to the sky and I will see rays of sun coming out of whatever clouds are up in the sky, and I know its her sending her love. But something odd happened yesterday. I was driving home, crying of course, and started telling Korry how much I love and miss her. Well when I look up to the sky there were very few clouds, Certainly none thick enough to block the sun. But one cluster of wispy clouds stood out from all the rest. I know I have a vivid imagination, but this was crazy. The cloud looked like a cross between a side few of an angel and a butterfly. It was absolutely amazing. And the more I cried the more distinct the cloud became of an angel. And it stayed in the sky almost the whole way home, until I could get my tears under control. I know it was Korry sending love.
It made me wonder... when people die, does it take a while to become an actual angel? Is there something you have to do in Heaven to get your wings? Is there a "waiting period" of sorts. I only wonder since I had never had this many angel/wings going on before, and now they abound. I find it exciting!
On another note, Jazsper was kinda quiet eating his dessert with me the other night. I asked him what was going on and he asked how old Papa was. I told him 68. and he said so what comes after that? I answered 69, 70. He said with teary eyes, so he is almost 100??? I smiled at him and said no, Papa had a long way to go. I realized at that time what the problem was. My uncle who was 82 recently died, of old age and a worn out body. Jazsper was worried that Papa was going to die soon, too because he is "old". He climbed on my lap and cried. poor baby. I explained Papa is in good shape and not that old and he would be around for a long time.... he calmed down after a few minutes and went back to his ice cream.... how sad he is that he is so worried about death now. most kids at 6 don't even think about it....
Our lives are so different from other people's. Not that they don't have tragedies or problems, it is just different.
So Sad today......
It made me wonder... when people die, does it take a while to become an actual angel? Is there something you have to do in Heaven to get your wings? Is there a "waiting period" of sorts. I only wonder since I had never had this many angel/wings going on before, and now they abound. I find it exciting!
On another note, Jazsper was kinda quiet eating his dessert with me the other night. I asked him what was going on and he asked how old Papa was. I told him 68. and he said so what comes after that? I answered 69, 70. He said with teary eyes, so he is almost 100??? I smiled at him and said no, Papa had a long way to go. I realized at that time what the problem was. My uncle who was 82 recently died, of old age and a worn out body. Jazsper was worried that Papa was going to die soon, too because he is "old". He climbed on my lap and cried. poor baby. I explained Papa is in good shape and not that old and he would be around for a long time.... he calmed down after a few minutes and went back to his ice cream.... how sad he is that he is so worried about death now. most kids at 6 don't even think about it....
Our lives are so different from other people's. Not that they don't have tragedies or problems, it is just different.
So Sad today......
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