STRUGGLES

Sometimes the hardest struggle is functioning. I find myself being very blue, yet still having to function at work and home. It makes me crabby. I don't want to talk to or deal with other people. Especially stupid ones, or demanding ones. I end up with no patience what so ever. And I become short with people.
I wish I knew what triggers these moods..... It is really never anything, it just sorta starts when I get off work in the evening and I look at the sky and start talking to Korry about how much I miss her. It just kinda continues from there. Things that don't normally bother me, really cause a struggle at these times.
Korry and I were close to the same size in clothes. She wore some of mine, and since she is no longer here, I have taken the clothes of hers that I liked or bought for her, that will fit me. Today I put on one of my own shirts that I haven't worn in forever because it was too small. It occurred to me that the last time I saw this shirt was on Korry. She borrowed it when she was "acting manager" at the restaurant. Normally her clothes don't bother me at all but this just really set me to crying this morning on the way to work, and I just can't seem to shake it.