DAY BY DAY

What is it that causes the flood of emotions sometimes? Some days it hits so suddenly, and I don't know what triggers it. And it will last for a few days, getting worse over time, then mellowing again. I really hope that Jaz will not have to go thru the aches and pains that I feel. It will break my heart when he starts to understand and realize the loss that he has gone thru. He is doing so good right now. He is such a well-adjusted little boy, and so sweet and kind and nice. He is so much like Korry. I just held him and cried last night when I was rocking him. And then when I went and laid in the trundle bed with him in his room with his hand in mine as he fell asleep, I had tears pouring down. He is so precious to me. Just like Korry was. Well all my kids are. I worry so much about the other two kids, too. Once you have gone thru this you worry you will go thru it again. I thank God everyday for getting me thru another night, another day. I pray for the comfort and strength that i need. God is so good to me. He lifts me and carries me thru. Korry's FB page has so many amazing posts. Songs, pictures, sayings, quotes. It continues to show how much she touched people's lives. I miss her so much.