Finally Figuring things out
I was sitting last night trying to review my sleep issues. I don't seem to fall asleep early. I am up til midnite most nights, and then I have to get up at 5:30. I get so tired. I finally realized that perhaps (one of those hmmmmmm momments) I am not able to actually fall asleep because I don't want to run the chance of being woken up at 3:00 am with a phone call of something terrible happening....
I thought about this for a while. I used to have problems staying asleep, but now I stay asleep fine, it is just that I can't GET to sleep. That was the time I got a phone call about Korry's accident. It was about the time Kelsey called me to tell me her husband was in the hospital, and it was about that time that my husband got a call that his brother was about to die in the hospital. (he had been in for a few days.) I think this is just a conglomeration of issues that my brain associates some how with sleeping. I feel a little better about it. Perhaps now I can work on addressing the problem.
My sister came to visit for a few weeks. I have lived in Alabama for over 13 years, and it is her first visit. We were always so close. She never made it out after Korry was killed. It was shortly after my dad died also, and she just can't get past that either. We had a wonderful visit. She had not seen Jazsper since he was 5 months old. So that was wonderful for her to be able to see him. She was reminded so much of Korry, of course. It was hard at times, but we didn't discuss Korry much. It is just too much for my sister to bare. Funny, too much for HER to bare! She has a lot of old issues I found as we talked about growing up. I had asked her to tell Jazsper stories of Korry. A different perspective from what he normally hears, but she never could. I was sad for her.
I love my Korry, and miss her, but I know she is with me always. She is with Jazsper always too. And I truly find so much comfort knowing she is nearby.
I thought about this for a while. I used to have problems staying asleep, but now I stay asleep fine, it is just that I can't GET to sleep. That was the time I got a phone call about Korry's accident. It was about the time Kelsey called me to tell me her husband was in the hospital, and it was about that time that my husband got a call that his brother was about to die in the hospital. (he had been in for a few days.) I think this is just a conglomeration of issues that my brain associates some how with sleeping. I feel a little better about it. Perhaps now I can work on addressing the problem.
My sister came to visit for a few weeks. I have lived in Alabama for over 13 years, and it is her first visit. We were always so close. She never made it out after Korry was killed. It was shortly after my dad died also, and she just can't get past that either. We had a wonderful visit. She had not seen Jazsper since he was 5 months old. So that was wonderful for her to be able to see him. She was reminded so much of Korry, of course. It was hard at times, but we didn't discuss Korry much. It is just too much for my sister to bare. Funny, too much for HER to bare! She has a lot of old issues I found as we talked about growing up. I had asked her to tell Jazsper stories of Korry. A different perspective from what he normally hears, but she never could. I was sad for her.
I love my Korry, and miss her, but I know she is with me always. She is with Jazsper always too. And I truly find so much comfort knowing she is nearby.
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