Medication questions 6/22/16 never posted....

About a month ago, I had a few days where I missed my antidepressant medications. I actually felt pretty good, in fact better than usual. And when we went to TX I didn't take them either. I felt like I was doing fine without them. My pharmacist, however said that it would take closer to a week to really notice a difference. So since that time I have dropped my dosage a little. Instead of 3 pills, I just have been taking 2. Odd thing, I have noticed a big difference in being MORE depressed, sad, teary. A lot of it has been Paul and his negativity making me extra sad, and father's day I got a text from my little sister just stating "I really miss dad today".  That totally set me over the edge. And I have been teary, missing my Dad, and teary missing my Korry.  So is it the lower dosage of meds, that is having bad affects, or is it just life????  I see the doctor in a week, so maybe she will have some ideas.
I don't like taking meds. I never have. But I think there are seasons in life where they are needed.
Kelsey ordered a blanket for Dominick that is made of pictures of Andy and Dominick. I think I will have one made for Jazsper! Kelsey comments on things about Dominick that make me wonder how he is adjusting.  Apparently there is a collage of pictures that someone made for Kelsey/Dominick and she said he is sleeping with it under his pillow. hmmm. that really surprised me.

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