Family
I know that it was important for Jazsper to have two parents when he was born that were married. Korry waited to get pregnant until she was married. About a year after she was married, Jazsper was born. All that changed when her husband greg cheated on her 9 months later. That was when she moved back to Alabama. Since her death, I have been very aware that Jazsper has a dad out there, just that he lives far away. Jazsper has been talking to him pretty regularly since August of last year, about the time preschool started. I made myself a promise that I would never keep Jazsper away from greg, because Korry wouldn't want that. Paul of course thinks he is worthless, and anyone who would not support their child isn't worth the child ever having contact.
With that being said, here we are 2 1/2 years later, and Jazsper's gramma Lucille has asked that if I could, they are having a family party in San Angelo TX over Memorial day, and could we please bring Jazsper. His cousins, brother, sister, and dad will be there with his gramma Lucille. These are people that I am friends with and that I know (well I am not friends with greg, but that is his dad, no matter what my feelings are). So we are driving to TX for a long Memorial Weekend. Kelsey and Dominick will go with me, Paul will not. Which is probably for the better. Part of me is excited to visit and have them see how wonderful Jazsper is doing. The other part of me is worried how it will affect Jazsper. Will he want to see his family more often? Will he want to talk to his dad more? These are all perfectly normal actions for a 5 year old. I just hope he is able to deal with seeing them, and then not seeing them. I won't make this trip every year. In the future, they will need to make arrangements to come to Alabama. But I will make the effort this first time, because I feel it is so important to Jazsper. I just pray for a safe trip, and that it won't cause any maladjustment's for him, and that Paul can learn to accept this part of Jazsper. That he has family other than us. I know that all of this must bring back memories for Paul of losing his dad. And the changes in his life after. But this scenario is not the same. Jazsper is living with grandparents that love him!
I just really dread the day that Jazsper says he wants to go live with his dad. I hope the day never comes, but I do worry about it.
With that being said, here we are 2 1/2 years later, and Jazsper's gramma Lucille has asked that if I could, they are having a family party in San Angelo TX over Memorial day, and could we please bring Jazsper. His cousins, brother, sister, and dad will be there with his gramma Lucille. These are people that I am friends with and that I know (well I am not friends with greg, but that is his dad, no matter what my feelings are). So we are driving to TX for a long Memorial Weekend. Kelsey and Dominick will go with me, Paul will not. Which is probably for the better. Part of me is excited to visit and have them see how wonderful Jazsper is doing. The other part of me is worried how it will affect Jazsper. Will he want to see his family more often? Will he want to talk to his dad more? These are all perfectly normal actions for a 5 year old. I just hope he is able to deal with seeing them, and then not seeing them. I won't make this trip every year. In the future, they will need to make arrangements to come to Alabama. But I will make the effort this first time, because I feel it is so important to Jazsper. I just pray for a safe trip, and that it won't cause any maladjustment's for him, and that Paul can learn to accept this part of Jazsper. That he has family other than us. I know that all of this must bring back memories for Paul of losing his dad. And the changes in his life after. But this scenario is not the same. Jazsper is living with grandparents that love him!
I just really dread the day that Jazsper says he wants to go live with his dad. I hope the day never comes, but I do worry about it.
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