Grieving Mother.. the journey through Life after my Daughter died

Grief is a funny thing in some ways. It helps you to understand other's grief, and gives you a different outlook on life. Kelsey is grieving, obviously. She has no clue that her actions, or lack there of are part of her grieving process. She is getting such a double, triple, quadruple whammy out of this.  She lost Korry, ran off to ND because andy said he would take care of her. Then she loses andy. So she becomes a widow at 22 years old. She is pregnant, living at her "in-laws" home. She lives there because that is what THEY decided she needed. Well unfortunately the mother in law as i have mentioned is just a control freak. And she is going thru grieving of her own, even tho she won't let herself. So Kelsey is a mess. We have been looking at houses. She found one, she wants it, she doesn't want it, she does, she doesn't. She wants someone to tell her what to do, because that is how she has lived her whole life, following whatever someone tells her.  Well, t...

As I mentioned in my last post, I am having a hard time keeping it together lately. I always feel like at any point in time I could burst into tears. I have decided perhaps it is stress. Not so much my stress, but Paul's and Kelsey's. I worry about Kelsey making poor choices right now, because I think tracy is pushing her too hard too fast.  Kyle tried to call her yesterday at lunch (at my request) and she doesn't answer. Half the time she answers calls/texts half the time she doesn't.  I don't know if it is because she doesn't feel like talking or what. She bounces between so many ideas of what she wants to do, I wish she would just stop. Enjoy her babies. Not worry about anything else.  I never know if she is answering my questions about what she wants to do honestly, or just saying what she thinks I want to hear. My main concern is she wants to take a WalMart job that is an hour from where she is living. 3 days a week. That is so crazy. She says they are the ...

Not sure when I wrote last, other than it was after Kelsey's husband died. A month after that, my husband's brother died. He had a heart attack and never really came back from it well, then his body just shut down... I am really tired of death. A very dear young coworker's husband just finished his 3 year battle with cancer, as well.  They have a young boy about 6 or 7.  The last few years have been consumed with grieving of some sort or other. Yesterday, Jazsper went to a birthday party for one of the kids at preschool. He was so excited and had so much fun (even tho he was a bit under the weather). Driving home, I again was overcome with the thought that Korry should have been the one taking him. Most of the other people there were in there 20's, and Korry would have really enjoyed it. Don't get me wrong, I had a nice time and there was a couple other mom's that were in their 40's, that I visited with. It was just something that should have been Korry...