6 years and still......
I thought I was done posting. That perhaps there was nothing more to say. What a silly thought. There will always be something to say about Korry. It has been 6 years now and I guess plus a couple weeks. We put balloons on her cross as we always do on the day she died. Today when I drove into town, there were new balloons and some flowers too. In all the time since she has been gone, no one has ever put anything on her cross, besides me and my other daughter, Kelsey. It touched my heart that someone had thought of her and did that. That she was remembered. When I went onto her Facebook page there was a post from the guy who put the balloons and flowers there. And a bunch of comments about people missing her and what an amazing person she was. And some had wondered about how much she would have accomplished if her dreams. Strange thing, I didn’t recognize any of the names. I think most were people she worked with. So kind of them to be thinking of Korry. I read over some of the other posts on Facebook. One of her friends in Arizona who’s little boy is named after her, commented about how he knows he is named after her and what a wonderful person she was. A few comments were about what Korry would be doing if she was still alive. The plans she had.....
I don’t think of these things. All of it makes me cry and be so sad. Is it bad that I don’t want to think of what she could have been? What she misses of Jazsper? All the things that break my heart. I would be a basket case all the time. I worry so much for Jazsper. What he may be thinking, What bothers him, what helps him?.........
Today has just been so emotional after reading all the posts. Then jazsper’s basketball coach told me to be quiet during practice when I was correcting Jazsper....
I am plunging into an abyss. I can feel it. I am so lost and floundering and I have no one to talk to. Some times I feel like I just need to give Jazsper to his dad and disappear. Just go somewhere far far away where it doesn’t hurt. One of Korry’s friend’s commented that she never drives down the road where Korry was killed. In 6 years she has never driven down the road..... the impact that Korry’s death has had on her friends is incredible. I have always thought she was amazing, but reading what people are still saying about her, naming their children after her......
I miss her so much. It hurts so much.......
I don’t think of these things. All of it makes me cry and be so sad. Is it bad that I don’t want to think of what she could have been? What she misses of Jazsper? All the things that break my heart. I would be a basket case all the time. I worry so much for Jazsper. What he may be thinking, What bothers him, what helps him?.........
Today has just been so emotional after reading all the posts. Then jazsper’s basketball coach told me to be quiet during practice when I was correcting Jazsper....
I am plunging into an abyss. I can feel it. I am so lost and floundering and I have no one to talk to. Some times I feel like I just need to give Jazsper to his dad and disappear. Just go somewhere far far away where it doesn’t hurt. One of Korry’s friend’s commented that she never drives down the road where Korry was killed. In 6 years she has never driven down the road..... the impact that Korry’s death has had on her friends is incredible. I have always thought she was amazing, but reading what people are still saying about her, naming their children after her......
I miss her so much. It hurts so much.......
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