Another Christmas without my Korry

This was my sixth Christmas without Korry.  They don’t get any less painful. I have been very emotional about Korry lately. Seems like she has come up in conversations more than usual.
This was the least Christmassy Christmas I have had in a long time. I just wasn’t feeling the Christmas mood. I decorated the inside of the house. But I started putting the blow ups in the yard, got 3 up and 2 started to poop out, and I never put any more up after that.  I just didn’t feel like it was Christmas. I did all my shopping online. I finished early enough with most things. Went to a few Christmas activities with the kids, but just wasn’t feeling it. I didn’t get any hustle bustle, in fact I didn’t even get too thrilled over all the houses with Christmas lights. Kelsey came over and spent Christmas Eve. Which has become the routine. And I have to say, she was very enjoyable. And has grown up a lot this past year.but even having the three grandkids Christmas morning didn’t help. Kyle wasn’t here this year. Which really isn’t anything new. He was out last year, but that was a rarity. So nothing was really different. Just a very unhappy one.  Not trying to feel sorry for myself. Just putting it out there. The loss of Korry has just been real heavy on my heart this year.
I miss her so much.