Grieving Mother.. the journey through Life after my Daughter died

I have not done any research or thorough study on this topic, but I have always heard that after the loss of a child it is not uncommon for couples to divorce. What I have seen is generally it is differences in grieving; length of grieving, keeping emotions withheld, support systems, etc. When Korry first died my husband was the "strong" one. He picked up the pieces of my life that I had dropped, took care of "life" and accepted Jazsper with no second thought. Then time went by. And more time went by. We continued to have other losses in our lives. And to make adjustments. Paul has continued thru all of this to be depressed. And will not seek out help. Now, our situation may be a little different. Korry was not his child, he had already retired, and I am still working. And his life turned topsy turvy, not so much due to the loss, but the changes that came after. We became "parents" to a 2 1/2 year old. And whatever he thought his retirement time would h...

If you have followed my blog, you know that every year I go on a religious fast for 10 days. It is time for me to put the Lord and God first,  and to show that I am willing to do at least some sort of sacrafice in the start of the year. Additionally, I started going to church regularly again. Jazsper has been attending church also, because he wants to learn about Heaven and Jesus and where his mom is.  I have to say this year my fast had a pretty miraculous effect on me. The lessons at church have not been anything to necessarily to help with the comfort I have been in dire need of again this year. But it has been fascinating what I have been learning.  And it has brought me so much closer to Christ. With that being said, the natural progression of being close to Christ is feeling his love more and more in my life.  It has been amazing. I have found peace. I have truly felt the comfort that can only come from Christ. And it has been incredible. Sure I still miss my...