Grieving Mother.. the journey through Life after my Daughter died

My heart is broken. Last night while Jazsper was taking his bath, I tried talking to him about what has been bothering him. Finally I just came out and asked if he was missing his momma. He burst into tears and said his heart was sad. Oh it broke my heart all over again. The pain for this little guy. We cried for a little while, laughed a little, and after he got out I hugged him tight for a while just trying to send love into him. At bedtime he curled up with all his animals and slept. So apparently, he just needed to let it out and wasn’t sure how to go about it. I also told him I would make him a momma pillow. A pillow out of something of hers that he can hold and help not miss her. For some reason he is really wanting someone to sleep with him. He hasn’t done this in a long time. So many articles that I try to read to help, state that a child may all of a sudden have issues after doing perfectly well for a while. And it just continues. Just as it does for me. I don’t know wh...

I read an article yesterday that said something along the lines of the fact that you don’t have to remember the date of a death. That your mind and body remember it for you. We are approaching the completion of 3 years without Korry. I can tell while I am working that my mind is already not connecting 100%.   I struggle with days of the week, what date next week is, and I am a mess already. I have felt the pull of my heart and tears a lot over the last month. The roller coaster continues for me, as I am sure it will forever.   I would expect nothing less when I think of it.   But on a day to day basis, I don’t always realize what is going on.   I have to stop myself and say “grief is strong today”. This past Saturday my husband and I had taken Jazsper to the park to play. We picnicked and were there for a few hours. While Jazsper was playing with some of the kids there, my husband started talking about the loss of his brother (Feb 14,2016) and some things th...