Missing Momma
The other day, Jazsper must have been missing Korry more than usual. He asked if I had any videos of Korry. Then he asked if I had any saved voicemails. I explained that I didn’t have any videos because he was only 2 when she died and we really didn’t have time enough to take videos. We weren’t expecting her to be gone. And I didn’t have any saved voicemails for the same reason. It made me so sad. But then the hardest part was that he asked if he could call me Momma. It broke my heart, he just wants a Momma so bad. How do you answer that. I told him that he already had a Momma, she was just up in heaven. But I added that if he wanted to call me Momma he could. It tore me up inside. I had so many mixed emotions over it. He called me Momma then, and a few times later that day, and has not mentioned it since. As I started typing this post, I realized why he did this. Or at least why I think this conversation came up. I wonder if he is...