Grieving Mother.. the journey through Life after my Daughter died

I worry sometimes that I use my grief as a reason for all my problems. I have been pretty down lately, but I think it was because Jazsper started 1st grade this week. A milestone that Korry should have been here for.  The milestones are really starting to effect me. It seems like they are always coming up and I am always wishing she was here for it, and it makes me sad. I also think it is clouding my brain some too. Or is this just me? Difficult to discern what really is the cause of it all.  I struggled with depression for so many years prior to moving to Alabama, I worry that it is coming back.  But as I have also decided I have been thru so much in the last few years....... Jazsper starting 1st grade was made harder by his independence. He didn't want me to walk him into school and help him get to where he needed to go. He wanted me to go thru the car drop off and he could do it by himself.  I cried at how big he is getting.  Korry would be so proud of him. ...

I was watching the news last night, and they were talking with the parents from the Sandy Hook Elementary shooting. I understand that the last place you expect your young child to get killed is at school. I also realize how shocking that would be and how devastating for the parents. But as they were talking to these parents they made it sound like their loss was so much different. That their loss was so horrible. That their loss will change their lives forever.  That these parents lost their children and how unfair that was. I swear it was just about gun control. Which I think is an even worse reason for re-approaching these parents. But, I couldn't help thinking. My loss of Korry was sudden, unexpected. She was killed by an idiot driver. Do I campaign against idiot drivers???? I do understand the difference between the two incidents, but I find it hard to believe that their hearts hurt more than mine. They talk about how they don't want their child to be forgotten, that the...