A Year is Approaching
People have warned me that every year on the date she was killed it will be difficult, and bring back a flood of grief. They didn't warn me however, that it starts 6 weeks prior to that date. It has been like a roller coaster ride the past week or so. I have been so close to tears so many times. And then frequently crying, remembering some of the wonderful things about Korry. It's been so hard. And I have been irritable. It seems like my patience level is gone worse than usual. Life has changed so much in the past 10+ months. So many changes and things to learn to have to take care of and things to deal with. It has really worn me down. I really wish I had a day just to curl up and do nothing but cry. But, of course I can't because I have Jaz. And Jaz needs Gramma to be 100%. But on top of that Paul wouldn't understand. He would be busy finding me something to do. He doesn't like just sitting, and he has no place for crying. I wish somehow he could un...