Is it Normal??

In my internet "favorite" bar I have one of the websites from Korry's crash saved. I don't pull it up very often, in fact rarely, but it is just the last information on her.  I was going to show it to a coworker, but I thought... hmm I bet she would think that is weird.  It comforts me having it somehow.

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