Going into Christmas
I made it thru Korry's angelversery ok. I took the week off before, and it was a good thing because apparently my mind slowly starts to shut down. I made a few mistakes my last day of work that week. Silly mistakes that I normally would not have made. I think that is the best way to describe it. It is a slow shut down of my thought processes. I took Balloons down to Korry's cross with Kelsey in the early afternoon. Then we drove to Starbucks and got a coffee and cake pop in honor of Korry and toasted her. The boys each took turns singing songs at her cross. I feel like I should be writing and documenting more; but, I don't really have anything new to say. I miss my daughter. I have a whole in my heart that won't ever go away. I continue on and function because I have no choice, I need to be a good gramma-mommy to Jazsper. I want to cry a lot when I think of her because she is not here. All perfectly normal behaviors. But it sucks.